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[13 Feb 2008|10:54pm] |
i dont know if anyone reads this anymore nor do i really care to tell you the truth... i used to post on this thing hopeing people would read it and comment on it so i can be really really cool.
thats not my real post this is...
i am really in love with life right now. i mean of course there are some voids and stuff that needs to be improved but all in all... i really am happy... i love that its getting darker later and that the sun stays out longer, the fact thats its warming up and starting to feel more like summer. i just cant wait for summer and the beach. a lot of people say they love nightime better than daytime but i dont... i love the sun and being outside.
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[28 Jan 2008|11:29pm] |
hmm sometimes when its late at night i just kinda sit here and think about everything while listening to good music... it kind of drives me crazy because a lot of the things i think about are stuff that crushed me in the past and i think about what i did to deserve them happening to me... and then i come to my conclusion the same fucking conclusion everytime... "It's just life"
love is the greatest feeling in the world and heart break is the worst.
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[12 Nov 2007|02:42am] |
im alive and well
life has been really good to me latly. i dont really know what else to say
excepttttttt
i wanna hang out with people i havent seen in a while if i know you and havent seen you in a while send me a message on myspace and well hang out... i miss the old days and the people who made them memorable... lets make some more memorys.
myspace.com/ettam
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[01 Jul 2007|10:10pm] |
life is really strange. but its summer time and i fucking love it.
i need to make more money but that will happen as soon as i get my liscense back.
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[07 Jun 2007|08:53pm] |
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sometimes i just feel so lost.
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[08 May 2007|04:26pm] |
aint no progress without failure. failure just hurts sometimes... it doesnt even really hurt that bad anymore i just miss more than i ever thought i could...
ok i lied... it still hurts.
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[04 May 2007|02:43pm] |
this song right here says everything i have been feeling for the last 3 1/2 months... but i am finally getting over it... i just have relapses every now and then and right before bed is still my least favorite time because i cant share the last hours of the day with someone i love.
"I hear the clock, it's six a.m.
I feel so far from where I've been
I got my eggs and my pancakes too
I got my maple syrup, everything but you
I break the yolks, make a smiley face
I kinda like it in my brand new place
I wipe the spots off all the mirror
Don't leave the keys in the door
I never put wet towels on the floor anymore cause
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
I called my momma, she was out for a walk
Consoled a cup of coffee but it didn't wanna talk
So I pick up the paper, it was more bad news
More hearts being broken or people being used
Put on my coat in the pouring rain
I saw a movie, it just was wasn't the same
'Cause it was happy and I was sad and
It made me miss you oh so bad
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
I go about my business
I'm doin' fine
Besides what would I say
If I had you on the line
Same old story, not much to say
Hearts are broken, everyday
I brush my teeth and put the cap back on
I know you hate it when I leave the light on
I pick up a book and, turn the sheets down and
Take a deep breath and a good look around
Put on my pjs and hop into bed
I'm half alive but I feel mostly dead
I try to tell myself it'll be alright
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight
Dreams last for so long
Even after you're gone
I know you love me
And soon I know you'll see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you
Yeah
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you"
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[04 May 2007|12:37am] |
scratch those goals...
im just going to live life minute by minute hour by hour day by day.
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[02 May 2007|10:29am] |
here are my goals for the next 5 years...
get my liscense back september 1st.
start ABC's electrical school and apprenticeship and graduate in their 4 year program.
visit ireland at least once in that period of time.
if i like it enough... move there... seriously.
its been a dream of mine for a long time to go to ireland and check out the irish side of my heritage... i also need a change i think everyone does at least once in their life... why not make it when your starting your life rather in the middle of it.
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[02 May 2007|12:11am] |
i dont get why everyone is into PBR... shits gross after 2 beers... anyway do this...
post a comment
with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad. When you're finished, post this on your blog and see what people remember about you.
i really want everyone to do this.
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[29 Apr 2007|10:03pm] |
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oh man growing up... wow what a hard thing to do... i am in a really weird mood right now... kind of depressed and i dont know why... i just wish it was light outside right now because sometimes i cant take the dark.
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[26 Apr 2007|02:31pm] |
im finally starting to get ahead in life and i am finally looking into the future and making plans with the future in mind... feels like im finally taking the 1st step to growing up...
but i will always be a big kid at heart... hell i still watch cartoons all the time.
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[20 Apr 2007|05:02pm] |
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i still dont get why everything works out for me in the end... like almost always. its like some special gift i have. maybe its just because i dont sweat the small stuff. who knows all i know right now is its time to hit the gym and then drink mass amounts of beer.
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[19 Apr 2007|06:25pm] |
"There, there, baby
It’s just text book stuff
It’s in the ABC of growing up
Now, now, darlin’
Oh don’t lose your head
'Cause none of us were angels"
i know im missing a line from this verse but this kind of explains the last 2 1/2 months of my life...
ive been posting a lot on here does anyone even read this?
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[19 Apr 2007|05:52pm] |
gotta work tonight for some over time... 8 til ???
whatever $16.50 an hour works for me
especially when i have tomorrow off.
oh man i want to drink a lot of beer this weekend...
and only 1 month and 1 1/2 weeks until my 21st birthday in grand ol LAS VEGAS!!!
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[18 Apr 2007|10:50pm] |
whenever life gets you down you always have music to bring you right back up... not that i am down right now just wounded but my wounds are slowly healing and i am making a full recovery...
i look at everything negative that happens as a learning expierence i just wish i can do the same to positive things that happen... i take to much shit for granted... at least i now know that and that is the 1st step to appreciating them.
i do however have an empty void in my life and that void can only be filled by a warm hearted girl that i can fall in love with.
and as much as i want that right now i also want to take a break from the opposite sex and get my bearings again so i can keep on rolling in the future.
but if a cute girl comes along with a personality to match i would not pass up that opportunity because what never was... you never know... and what you dont pass up can very well be the greatest thing that ever happened to you.
and i still feel like i am a lot smarted than a lot of people in this world and that i have the upper advantage when it comes to this game we called life.
p.s. why does everyone have to drive a white 4runner?
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[18 Apr 2007|02:48pm] |
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"speeding cars" by Imogen Heap is my favorite song at the moment
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[17 Apr 2007|06:10pm] |
on my friends page i see a lot of people posting pictures of gay haircuts...
stop being gay
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[16 Apr 2007|08:56am] |
not doing to good... but i still have this smile on my face but my brain feels like its running a never ending race
but hey... at least i am doing something about it.
or trying to at least...
but you cant have beauty without a beautiful brain inside your outer shell and only time can tell.
"Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive"
i LOVE being in LOVE... but i HATE when i lose a LOVE.
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[15 Apr 2007|01:51pm] |
once again when i thought i was alright it comes back to me and bites me in the ass...
its ok i guess more motivation to get myself back into shape...
but good lord how much i miss.
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